hmmmmm, well i have successfully avoided doing anything creative towards my impending exhibitions..............i am floundering around in the muck trying to sort out how to pay huge bills when i earn so little money - it takes up a lot of my time and really doesn't get me anywhere at all, except for making me more worried about drowning under the pressure of trying to stay afloat! bums!
it's less than 4 weeks till the project room opening and my last vain attempt to secure funding through central station didn't work - that's about 5 or 6 funding strands i've approached for this one show and not a single sheckle offered towards it. i know i'm not good with words, that much is clear, hence i'm a visual artist, but i really find it difficult to swallow that i am so unworthy of investment - am i really?
i've tried every year for 15 years to secure some sort of funding from all kinds of places, possibly 20-30 applications each year, but to no avail whatsoever....it's really hard going, especially when i have a show and yet i have no money to produce anything that i had really wanted to, that's really disappointing. yes, i can just show some drawings, yes, i can possibly print out a few pamphlets, but it's not ever going to be the show that i was intending to exhibit due to lack of finance.
i guess it's a never ending balancing act - trying to earn enough money to just get by so that there is enough time to be creative - i've just not found the right balance - before i was far far too busy to fit in creative time properly, now i don't quite earn enough to enable me to pay for my creative time....it's a conundrum...
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