hmmmmm, well i have successfully avoided doing anything creative towards my impending exhibitions..............i am floundering around in the muck trying to sort out how to pay huge bills when i earn so little money - it takes up a lot of my time and really doesn't get me anywhere at all, except for making me more worried about drowning under the pressure of trying to stay afloat! bums!
it's less than 4 weeks till the project room opening and my last vain attempt to secure funding through central station didn't work - that's about 5 or 6 funding strands i've approached for this one show and not a single sheckle offered towards it. i know i'm not good with words, that much is clear, hence i'm a visual artist, but i really find it difficult to swallow that i am so unworthy of investment - am i really?
i've tried every year for 15 years to secure some sort of funding from all kinds of places, possibly 20-30 applications each year, but to no avail whatsoever....it's really hard going, especially when i have a show and yet i have no money to produce anything that i had really wanted to, that's really disappointing. yes, i can just show some drawings, yes, i can possibly print out a few pamphlets, but it's not ever going to be the show that i was intending to exhibit due to lack of finance.
i guess it's a never ending balancing act - trying to earn enough money to just get by so that there is enough time to be creative - i've just not found the right balance - before i was far far too busy to fit in creative time properly, now i don't quite earn enough to enable me to pay for my creative time....it's a conundrum...
x
Sunday, 8 August 2010
Sunday, 18 July 2010
time flies!
well well well, time flies sooooo fast! i can't believe it is a month since i last posted a blog - how did that happen??? blimey! if it's any consolation i have thought about it frequently...no, that doesn't actually count does it, sorry!
ok, so what has been happening? well, i managed to survive the intensive month of june doing the ironbbrazt art-off at market gallery, phew! i got a letter back from glasgow city council's sport and leisure saying that had unfortunately not won a small visual art grant again (i think i have a complete set of these knock-back letters that span the past 15 years!!!), i have almost completed my first ever e-card animation and i have nearly filled my first book of 'iamconsumer' (only two pages to go!)....
up and coming over the next few months is ironbbratz team working with some italian artist at the tramway in august - {will let you know what, where, when and who once i know} - and also a show in the glasgow project room in september with simon shaw - {cripes! i'd better start making stuff!!!}
i'm off to eat my tea now and contemplate the future manoeuvres needed to sail my dingy safely around the shores of possibility xxx
Thursday, 17 June 2010
june june june june june...etc
my my my, half way through june already!!!
this month I have mostly been involved with the Versus project held at Market Gallery - I am on team Ironbbratz - hell yeah! we have created and installed 4 shows since the beginning of the month and we have our 5th show opening on Saturday 20th at 7pm - come and join in!
also, the comic strip project, the big antidote, that i did the opening story panels for (not the title at the top, but the bit that introduces Sylvie and the fox) is now actually up on a 30 metre long hoarding on Old Street, London!!!! if you can, please go and see it, take photos and send them to me (as I can't go to see it myself), i would most appreciate that, thanks.
right, must go and make art!!!
xxxxxxxxx
this month I have mostly been involved with the Versus project held at Market Gallery - I am on team Ironbbratz - hell yeah! we have created and installed 4 shows since the beginning of the month and we have our 5th show opening on Saturday 20th at 7pm - come and join in!
also, the comic strip project, the big antidote, that i did the opening story panels for (not the title at the top, but the bit that introduces Sylvie and the fox) is now actually up on a 30 metre long hoarding on Old Street, London!!!! if you can, please go and see it, take photos and send them to me (as I can't go to see it myself), i would most appreciate that, thanks.
right, must go and make art!!!
xxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, 2 June 2010
i think this must be the gulf stream!!!
well, this month has started off at full throttle....
a week or so ago i got invited to take part in an exhibition experiment which sounded pretty good fun - i didn't have too many details about it, just vague idea about it being a kind of competition against another group of glasgow based artists....
we had our fist meeting yesterday at 7pm at Market Gallery where the true extent of what i have signed up for became a lot clearer...very suddenly!
it's art wars!!!!
we got our first brief last night and a budget from which we had to produce a work to assessed this afternoon at 5:30pm!
there were several factors that made this a hard task
- 1st was my group Ironbbratz was made up of people who didn't all know each other or each others' work and practice
- 2nd the budget was given to us after most of the shops had shut (and our decisions were definitely made after all the other useful shops in the vicinity had closed)
- 3rd was that many of us have those really crap things called jobs which get in the way of work!!! hee hee, only kidding!
it was all good and really really exciting - i've not been so pumped about being involved in anything for ages - this is the kind of project that takes me back to just after i graduated when everything seemed possible and everything pretty much was possible depending on how much effort you put in to make it happen - BRILLIANT!
we got graded as 'effective' for our response to the first brief, occupy....
we have our next brief already and will be graded on Friday afternoon....hmmmm...
apart from that, i am in the final stages of the ten animated films i'm making for East Ayrshire hopefully - squeezing them into all my spare time (which seems suddenly to have completely evaporated - eek!) so that should be one less thing to do soon, fingers crossed...
i'll be back..................after this break
x
a week or so ago i got invited to take part in an exhibition experiment which sounded pretty good fun - i didn't have too many details about it, just vague idea about it being a kind of competition against another group of glasgow based artists....
we had our fist meeting yesterday at 7pm at Market Gallery where the true extent of what i have signed up for became a lot clearer...very suddenly!
it's art wars!!!!
we got our first brief last night and a budget from which we had to produce a work to assessed this afternoon at 5:30pm!
there were several factors that made this a hard task
- 1st was my group Ironbbratz was made up of people who didn't all know each other or each others' work and practice
- 2nd the budget was given to us after most of the shops had shut (and our decisions were definitely made after all the other useful shops in the vicinity had closed)
- 3rd was that many of us have those really crap things called jobs which get in the way of work!!! hee hee, only kidding!
it was all good and really really exciting - i've not been so pumped about being involved in anything for ages - this is the kind of project that takes me back to just after i graduated when everything seemed possible and everything pretty much was possible depending on how much effort you put in to make it happen - BRILLIANT!
we got graded as 'effective' for our response to the first brief, occupy....
we have our next brief already and will be graded on Friday afternoon....hmmmm...
apart from that, i am in the final stages of the ten animated films i'm making for East Ayrshire hopefully - squeezing them into all my spare time (which seems suddenly to have completely evaporated - eek!) so that should be one less thing to do soon, fingers crossed...
i'll be back..................after this break
x
Thursday, 13 May 2010
meat meat meat
hello, well, the c:o/minx meeting was really fun as we went to the closing celebration party for GI in the Pollok cricket club...as soon as we walked in the club house we were confronted with a table of meat products which turned out to be a raffle...we didn't buy any tickets, just some beer which we placed on top of the pretty hideous and badly varnished spam and egg coasters!!! (made of real spam and egg, yes!!)
there was a really good band playing, but i've no idea what they were called, and then there was some pinjata action served against a quite attractive pink paper mache pig, and then at the end of the night, the raffle was given out....by this time we had inherited a number of raffle tickets from other folk who had left and first we won a pie in a tin, then we won a box of gravy granules, then a tin of corned beef, then some frazzles...
i'm a vegetarian
anyway, back to taking over the world with my scribbling....i need to get these animations for the schools finished and get back to my own work - it's weird how jobs come along like a big gust of wind and blow me off track - i really need to get myself some anchors and/or steel underpants tout suite!
toot toot x
there was a really good band playing, but i've no idea what they were called, and then there was some pinjata action served against a quite attractive pink paper mache pig, and then at the end of the night, the raffle was given out....by this time we had inherited a number of raffle tickets from other folk who had left and first we won a pie in a tin, then we won a box of gravy granules, then a tin of corned beef, then some frazzles...
i'm a vegetarian
anyway, back to taking over the world with my scribbling....i need to get these animations for the schools finished and get back to my own work - it's weird how jobs come along like a big gust of wind and blow me off track - i really need to get myself some anchors and/or steel underpants tout suite!
toot toot x
Monday, 26 April 2010
big fat monday....
hello, it is indeed big fat monday - and to try and combat it - and the fact that i have barely moved for two whole days due to an extra-ordinarily large amount of animation prep work - i have walked to my yoga class (about 2.5miles away), did my yoga, and then walked home again (another 2.5miles), however, it is still monday......
so, the last week has compromised mainly of cleaning up after my wee kitty as she has been super poorly and sickly - really stinky and bad stuff, poor wee soul!!! i have not had much of a chance to seize the rudder and steer myself into any brilliantly creative inlets or cruise by a research and development island unfortunately - bums!
i did show Dave my drawings for miss monkey and he seems happy so far with the direction they are going, but i have decided to hang fire doing anymore until the poem is finished, as the story my change and then the drawings will be redundant, but i have really enjoyed doing them, so i'm looking forward to getting the finished version from Dave when he has it!!!
the other creative endeavour i've been involved in this week is working with 2 primary 7 classes in kilmarnock to make a series of animations based around the novel, carry's war - the final part of the class contact time was on friday there, when i filmed and sound recorded all the groups (there's 10 of them!!!) performing their chapters live beside a kamishabai theatre {this is what i have been working on preping all the animation images for editing on top of the live performance for, over the past two days - phew! it really is an extra-ordinarily huge amount of work - mainly because there was hardly any class time with the children and so i have had to do all of the animation work on behalf of the children...a very odd situation....}
anyway, i look forward this week to friday mainly, as i have a meeting with the most excellently talented and darn-right beautiful c:o/minx girls - yeah! bring it on! (oooo, i did do my homework ages ago, but my computer crashed...can't remember if i ever went back and re-did it - best check before friday!)
have a good week
xxxx
so, the last week has compromised mainly of cleaning up after my wee kitty as she has been super poorly and sickly - really stinky and bad stuff, poor wee soul!!! i have not had much of a chance to seize the rudder and steer myself into any brilliantly creative inlets or cruise by a research and development island unfortunately - bums!
i did show Dave my drawings for miss monkey and he seems happy so far with the direction they are going, but i have decided to hang fire doing anymore until the poem is finished, as the story my change and then the drawings will be redundant, but i have really enjoyed doing them, so i'm looking forward to getting the finished version from Dave when he has it!!!
the other creative endeavour i've been involved in this week is working with 2 primary 7 classes in kilmarnock to make a series of animations based around the novel, carry's war - the final part of the class contact time was on friday there, when i filmed and sound recorded all the groups (there's 10 of them!!!) performing their chapters live beside a kamishabai theatre {this is what i have been working on preping all the animation images for editing on top of the live performance for, over the past two days - phew! it really is an extra-ordinarily huge amount of work - mainly because there was hardly any class time with the children and so i have had to do all of the animation work on behalf of the children...a very odd situation....}
anyway, i look forward this week to friday mainly, as i have a meeting with the most excellently talented and darn-right beautiful c:o/minx girls - yeah! bring it on! (oooo, i did do my homework ages ago, but my computer crashed...can't remember if i ever went back and re-did it - best check before friday!)
have a good week
xxxx
Monday, 19 April 2010
it's raining fairly hard...
the wind is whipping up quite a fair wee bit too outside - luckily i'm home safe and dry with a warm kitty draped across my lap :)
it's GI time - oh yes it is!
i don't have any work in it, but i've been to see some good shows so far - i've seen 'fizz up and disolve' at Glasgow Project Rooms, Jim Lambie's 'metal urbain' at the Modern Institute and Tony's band at le Drapeau Noir (new cafe venue opposite Stereo on Renfield Lane) - all very very interesting and inspiring.
i have also started a batch of drawings about a young female monkey, which hopefully may be turned into a story book app if Mr Dave Sapien of Me and the Giants likes them....i'll show him them tomorrow and keep you posted..
apart from that....i've been for TWO farewell lunches with my Scottish Screen colleagues in the past week, both yummy and very enjoyable (that'll be the food!) - i do miss those guys!
....and last week i was elevated from meagre Studio Manager to the high echelon that is Director of Glasgow Independent Studio!!! woo! that's pretty exciting :)
i think that's it really...my mind is a bit blank to be honest...the radar is not showing up anything significant on the horizon and i've still not quite worked out which way up to hold my map...but it'll all be clear enough soon, i hope
xxx
it's GI time - oh yes it is!
i don't have any work in it, but i've been to see some good shows so far - i've seen 'fizz up and disolve' at Glasgow Project Rooms, Jim Lambie's 'metal urbain' at the Modern Institute and Tony's band at le Drapeau Noir (new cafe venue opposite Stereo on Renfield Lane) - all very very interesting and inspiring.
i have also started a batch of drawings about a young female monkey, which hopefully may be turned into a story book app if Mr Dave Sapien of Me and the Giants likes them....i'll show him them tomorrow and keep you posted..
apart from that....i've been for TWO farewell lunches with my Scottish Screen colleagues in the past week, both yummy and very enjoyable (that'll be the food!) - i do miss those guys!
....and last week i was elevated from meagre Studio Manager to the high echelon that is Director of Glasgow Independent Studio!!! woo! that's pretty exciting :)
i think that's it really...my mind is a bit blank to be honest...the radar is not showing up anything significant on the horizon and i've still not quite worked out which way up to hold my map...but it'll all be clear enough soon, i hope
xxx
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